Friday, February 27, 2009

Still Waiting Here

Well, we have come to the end of another week with no referrals. I have come to absolutely hate Fridays, especially Friday afternoons, cuz chances are there will be no referral phone call. And I for the first time in my life get excited about Mondays, because the office is open again. And today I found out that the CHI worker that would be calling us is taking a week off the second week of March. So I wonder if that means no referrals during that week? Or what? Hopefully we would have gotten our call by then. We have passed the 36 week mark. In fact, I think we are now waiting 37 weeks. I cannot believe I am losing track of what week we are on when at one point, I focused on it. I know very well that each day that passes is one day closer to referral day. We are now working on redoing our fingerprints because they will expire before we get to travel. Fingerprints are good for 15 months, and ours expires in May. I cannot believe we probably will not even be bringing her home until summer possibly! I hope to God it will not run into August when courts close. Now, that would be agonizing. Lord please let this happen soon!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


I am very sorry to post such a thing, but there is devestating news. There is a particular family that needs our prayers. Carrie and Martin received a referral for their baby girl. They have never even had an opportunity to hold their precious angel. She passed away this weekend. This is devestating to me, having lost a daughter myself. At least I was able to hold and comfort mine. In fact, she died in my arms. This family is feeling a terrible loss. It is a loss that NO ONE can replace. It will forever change their lives and it will leave a permanent scar on their hearts. It is a horrible gaping wound now, but with time, the wound heals and a scar remains. One thing about this scar, it will not hurt so bad with time, but it will always be there to remind them. I am praying they find comfort in knowing their precious angel is in heaven, sitting on Jesus lap right now. And they will see her there one day, to be with her for eternity.

Friday, February 13, 2009

No News

Im sorry to say that there has been no news to report as far as our phone ringing from St Louis. I even contacted the agency to make sure they have all our correct phone numbers. However, this week 1 family did receive their referral for 2 1/2 mo old twin boys! That is such a blessing. I am very excited for them. At the same time, I am feeling very impatient, ansy, and down because it is another Friday evening. No calls expected til Monday. Then Mondays come and go and still, no call, It is really driving me crazy. I am trying to keep busy to keep my mind off of it, but that is impossible anymore. I pray every day that it will be the day, but the weeks just keep passing. I just do not like not being in any situation where all you can do is wait. I am not doing very well at it. AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! Just wanna scream!!!!!1