No News

I cannot sugar coat this message at all at this point, for all the families in the process. This blog is about our adoption journey, all the good and all the bad. Will leave out the cuss words because one day my sweet angel will read this. And I am not an impatient person. But this has been THE MOST agonizing part of the entire process. Knowing you are #1 top of the waiting for a referral list and not getting a call used to be my most agonizing part. But, at least we could some how go and do things and try to not think about it, and just feel peace that it is in Gods hands. Now, we have a little face that we have been staring at for months. Her little face in plastered all over the house and on my dash. Looking at me like" momma, where are you?" Brought to tears at this point. Its not fair to any baby/child to have to wait any longer than necessary. So, at this point, I am like, "Why God? Why couldnt our case pass last Friday? For that matter, why couldnt ours pass the first go around like so many others did? Why wasnt our case the first to be seen last Friday, before power went out, especially because we have unfinished court business from June 5? Why should Annsleigh have to wait any longer?" Im just sick of it and cannot function anymore. Today, we heard no news because our agency tried all day to get through to Ethiopia but due to power outtages there, they were unsuccessful. So, tomorrow, they say, tomorrow. Hopefully tomorrow is good news and not bad because I have a feeling if we do not pass court this week, we will not get to bring her home until August.